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{October 14, 2014}   The Next Chapter

Hi everyone! Thank you for visiting my blog. My name is AJ. I originally began writing this blog in an attempt to work through some personal issues deriving from my divorce some five years prior. Not only did this blog provide a safe place for me to put words to the feelings I was dealing with, I believe this blog sometimes served as a life boat for me. When I felt helpless, hurt, angry, alone, confused and exhausted, I would turn to my blog and just write letting it all out. I immediately felt better emotionally, but I also felt mentally centered, if that makes sense.

It was also my hope, I would be able to reach out to those who may be feeling some of the same feelings I was dealing with. If I could help just one person know she/he was not alone . . . as I often felt, I knew it would be worth opening myself up this way. By the way, opening up, being so exposed, is not easy for me.

I wanted to find when and where I lost the woman I once was. The woman I loved. The one I had self confidence in. The woman I was before the end of my husband of 20 years walked out on me and our three kids deciding he “no longer wanted to be married”. I wanted to find the woman I knew was still somewhere deep inside of the woman I had become. I’m not proud of that woman. She was bitter, in so much pain, each day was a struggle, and she had given up on love completely. Hence the name of this blog. How I Ended Up This Way. It didn’t happen overnight and wouldn’t be fixed overnight. However, I knew it was within me to dig deep and rediscover the woman who believed in love and saw the world as a place to enjoy and experience life instead of something I would have to endure day after day.

As it turned out, from the very first blog post… I received so many stories from my readers saying “I’m in tears… this could have been written about me” or “I thought I was the only one who felt this way. I truly felt alone in the world”. Hearing these words, my pain fell to the wayside. I had a new mission. It was to do whatever I could, using my experiences, to reach out to help these lovely people not feel so alone.

Once my mission became clear, I was like falling back into my old self. By telling my story and some wacky stories along the way, I found the woman I had been searching for all along. To my readers and those who shared your stories via comments … I am so grateful to you.

As I make my way through the next chapter of my life, I hope you will continue to read my blogs and take this journey with me wherever it may lead me. We’ll share some laughs, maybe a few tears, but definitely encouragement that you are not alone in this!

Be sure to follow my facebook facebook.com/writerajcarroll (and like my Author page for updates on my novel Rightfully Mine)

And twitter: http://www.Twitter.com/WriterAJCarroll

Until next time…
AJ

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{November 7, 2013}   A Revisit to “Why”

Hey guys. I first wrote this blog in December 2011. With my recent car accident, my mother’s ongoing health issues and a few other personal issues, I needed the comfort that comes when I post this blog. If you saw it the first go around, I hope you enjoy the revisit. If you missed out on the original post; I hope you enjoy 🙂

* The Colour of Heaven By Aartist

It’s almost 5:30am. I have not been to sleep. I have tried but this blog and the words said here, would not leave my heart and mind. So, I hope it finds the person who needs to read these words as much as I needed to write them.

I asked God, “why do some judge me?”  He said “because you once judged another.’

I asked God, “why is it so difficult for me to buy my children the things they want?” God replied “do the children have what they need?”

I then asked God, “why have I suffered so?” He simply replied “It is not yet time for you to know.”

I ask God, “where were you when my brother died?”  God said, “I was right beside you. You were just not ready to see me”.

I dropped to the floor, crying from shame of things I had done throughout my life. With my head held down, I asked God, “how can you even look at me or bear to hear my name after all I’ve done wrong? How can you still love me?”

God said, “You have done many things in your life, some brought me joy, some brought me pain. A long time ago, at the beginning of time, I wrote your name down by mine. I gave you a gift and the desire to help others. In order for you to help others, your heart had to know the pain of others. I did not like seeing you in pain. You have asked for forgiveness, and I have given it. You can not buy forgiveness, it’s not to be bartered nor compromised.”

Reaching His hand out to me, He said, “Now, stand, my child, for your sins have already been paid.

Until next time……Peace

A.J.

* PHOTO CURTESY OF AARTIST ; http://aartist.deviantart.com/art/The-Colour-of-Heaven-138170562



{January 11, 2011}   Why It’s Good To Be A Woman

Hello everyone, welcome!!

I’m doing something a little different today. I would like to share an email I received. Even if you are a guy; it’s just plain funny!

Enjoy!

 

National  Girlfriend and Sister’s Week
I  am only as strong as the coffee I drink, the  hairspray I use, and the friends I  have.
To the cool women who have  touched my life. Here’s to  you!

National  Girlfriends’ Day  Be  Happy! 

Why It  is good to be a woman:  

1.  We got off the Titanic first.

2. We can  scare male bosses with the mysterious  gynecological disorder excuses.

3  Taxis stop for us.

4. We don’t look  like a frog in a blender when  dancing.

5. No fashion faux pas we  make, could ever rival the Speedo.

6.  We don’t have to pass gas to amuse  ourselves.

7. If we forget to shave, no  one has to know.

8. We can congratulate  our teammate without ever touching her rear  end.

9. We never have to reach down  every so often to make sure our privates are  still there..

10. We have the ability  to dress ourselves.

11.  We can  talk to the opposite sex without having to  picture them naked.

12.  If we  marry someone 20 years younger, we are aware  that we will look like an idiot.

13. We  will never regret piercing our  ears.

14. There are times when  chocolate really can solve all your  problems.

15. We can make comments  about how silly men are in their presence  because they aren’t listening anyway.   

Until next time . . . Peace

AJ



{December 13, 2010}   What you’ve Been Waiting For

Hello everyone! Welcome to a very special blog! If it weren’t this exciting, I would not be up at 4:30 AM getting this blog ready for you!

I can’t promise it will be a long blog; however, it will be eye opening!

So, I’ve promised you two exciting revelations, haven’t I? Where to start? I could just ramble on for awhile. Or, I could tell you an amazing yet completely unrelated story. I could just leave you with an inspiring quote, as I have done before. Yea, I think I’ll go with the quote.

“Imagination means nothing without doing” Charlie Chaplin.

There you go; an amazing quote. I’ve done my duty. What’s that? Was that a curse word I felt spewing from your mouth? Well, that’s not nice.

I guess I’ll just have to get on with it, huh? My pleasure!

I did not choose the above quote by accident. Without the meaning of that one quote, neither of my announcements may not have happened.

First, let me end your suffering. My last blog mentioned how I went back and located some of our ancestors and found an amazing author that literally changed her world, 1852, and went on to sell over ½ million copies by 1857. We still read this book today as a lesson from the past; the book is still being re-released to this day. It is required reading for most of the schools in the United States, even today.

Any ideas? Harriet Beecher Stowe! That’s correct I am related to the author of “Uncle Tom’s Cabin”. Can you get much cooler than that? Now, the lines are so extensive I won’t even try to explain how many “greats” she is to me, but there are a lot of great-great-greats, I will tell you that!

Now, for my other BIG news!! The much anticipated, well….by me anyway, launch of my personal website is TODAY!!!

So, go check it out, see what you for yourself. I mean, I think it’s the most brilliant website there is…..well, besides Tom Cruise’s. His is hard to beat!

www.AJDaily.com  go on, see what you think! And be sure to email me or tweet me to let me know! More will be added within the next few days. There are so many things I want to accomplish! My new website will allow me to make a huge difference and, hopefully, give you some laughs, support, or whatever it is you seek.

E-books, short stories, articles, books and of course my blog are on the list of things I will be working on. I look forward to taking this next huge step and am so glad you will be right there with me!

On the website, there is already a link to my blog, so you will be access the blog through the website itself.

It’s now 5 am, and I am exhausted! So, enjoy my news and please share the enjoyment I feel right now just knowing I have so many wonderful friends that keep me writing!

Until next time……Peace

A.J.



{November 30, 2010}   Confessions

Hello everyone!

What should I blog about this morning? The beauty that is the Fall season? The debate over global warming? What? No? You have been waiting on something else? Oh yes, I promised you something today, didn’t I? The launch date of my new website!

The website is going great. The tentative launch date if this Friday!!! All is on schedule, so . . .  cross your fingers, knock on wood, or say 3 hail Mary’s . . . whatever you do to stop a jinx!

The first thing I am putting into motion, is for a book to be launched at a later date, as it involves other’s input. You may have already heard. I am writing a book called “Confessions to AJ”.

That’s right. You can confess anything you want, no matter how little or how big, and you can be in the book.

Now, I assure you, on my reputation as a writer and more importantly, as a person  of integrity, you will remain anonymous. As a matter of fact, I will even put my own confession in the book!

To get involved, you may request to be my friend on Twitter at “Confessions2AJ”. I will then befriend you and you may DM me anything you like.  No names or other info will be released with the book, or anyplace else for that matter. While you are in Twitter, send me a follow on my personal twitter page, asjbraves.

You may also send me an unsigned postcard, letter, or to note to the website’s mailing address: A.J.Carroll PO Box 462, Callahan, FL 32011.

If this whole process makes you feel uncomfortable, it’s ok. You don’t have to participate. But, I’m hoping you will J

Until next time……Peace

A.J.



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